pathetic nature of infatuation

I want more than they have to offer.
A pill, a bottle, an injection.
I want someone
To put back the stars
The light in the sky
I want an answer
Not an excuse
So many take my place
You left me where you thought I should be
3654 miles away
still just a finger on your hand
that pulled the trigger
and pulled away
I want what isn’t offered
More than a name on a list
Maybe I don’t deserve a  try
Maybe I meant every word I said
More than I let you hear
And maybe that wasn’t enough
You just laugh at things you meant to me
Because it makes no sense.
And I have none to offer
If any would be enough
Id offer it all
Goodnight always hurt this much
My colors bleed because of you
And things you stole
Never again will I throw myself at you
Or run towards your unopened arms
I want more than they have to offer
All you wont let me have.
I know its useless
But still ill try
Ill try.


~nothing and no one in particular